Monday, July 6, 2009

Dear Boys

If you are of the Male gender this is for you!

If you're not man enough to be a father... wrap it up or keep your pants on!

If you're not strong enough to be honest and end it when you've found someone else .... you don't deserve to have anything.

If you're not brave enough to take a chance when it seems like there could be something good there... you should just lock yourself in a dark room with your xbox for all of eternity.

If your not willing to open doors for girls... maybe you should consider dating boys.

If you're going to run at the first sight of trouble and not try to work things out... maybe you shouldn't ever get married.

If you're not kind enough to move the hell out when you leave your spouse high and dry... maybe you just shouldn't leave.

If you don't really like what you're doing for a relationship but do it anyway... maybe you should get your head examined!

If you take something that is precious to someone that can't be given back and you throw away like yesterdays trash.... you don't deserve to breathe!

Im so tired of most the boys these days! what the hell is your problem?! no it is not your god given right to have 3 or 4 girlfriends in fact if you marry that many its against the law! No its not okay to lie and cheat, No birth control is not only the girls problem. Yes you do have to take responsibility for your own mistakes and problems and YES life is hard not only for your self centered self but for every single living person! So GROW UP!! be an adult! you are not peter pan you do not live in never never land! and Women are people too who deserve to be treated as such and plus some!

Seth you're amazing and none of this about you. my lovely friends I really am going to go on a junk punching tour staring the one and only me, and the douche bags of the world laying on the floor crying in pain! I love you and you all deserve so much better! I know you'll find it! and I hope everything gets better!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

To everyone I love

Im so sorry to everyone for how busy I have been. I feel like I have been neglecting my duties as Daughter, Sister, Friend, and girlfriend alot. I have been so busy that I have gotten behind on so much including bills and watching where I spend my money. So Im trying to get everything back on track. and pick up all of the pieces. so..

To those of you who have texted me and I've seemed distracted.... It doesn't mean I wasn't listening and feeling for you. Im always here I just don't always have advice as I go through fixing my own problems and trying to get on a normal schedule. I love you and I don't want you to stop talking to me please keep texting me and keeping me updated! I promise to do what I can to help or listen if thats all you need

To those of you who have listened to me cry and stress... Thank you for listening and always being there! I totally appreciate it! I couldn't do any of this with out you!!

To Aubrey... I am so proud of how strong and amazing you are! I love that you share your opinions and I never want you to stop! never let anyone talk you out of that! you're a great mom and your boys truely adore you! Im so sorry for everything you're going through you deserve nothing but the best and I get so mad that you don't get treated the way you truely deserve! I hope with all my heart that things shape up and get better and you're family survives these difficult times! I love you Josh and Asher like you're my own family and I can't wait to meet the new little boy to soon join the group!

To Nataile.... You have come so far!!! I have learned so much from you and with out your help and support I would have never made it through everything with Brett. You truely let me lean on you when I really needed it. I hate that things were bad with us for awhile, I hate more than anything that I let something so stupid come between us I was so lost. Im so so happy that you gave me another chance. You are one of my best friends and one of the few people I feel like I could tell anything too. You're always and forever there when I need you and you've grown and changed so much! the way you have dealt with your divorce is amazing! you have such amazing strength to get through all of that and demand that you be treated right. you're truely an inspiration! and you have such great talent stick to the photograhpy you're going to be great! I know it! and I can't wait to start our Daycare! Im sorry I haven't shown much interest of late but Im still totally in!

To Jamie.... I know exactly what you are going through right now. you'll get through it even though you still can't see the light at the end of the tunnel just yet. I am always always always here when you're ready to talk. I love you!

To Jenn.. I know you're somewhat of a new friend but I value your opinions you are strong and have great ideas. Your family is amazing and thats because you're a great support and awesome mom. You're in my thoughts and prayers I know good things will happen for you and Brad.

To Meg and Betsy..... Im sorry I haven't seen you guys lately things have been so busy! and both of you got me through so much and we had so much fun! you're both my girls!

To Seth..... where do I even start? You're my perfect match! when you hold me everything disappears and becomes managable. I have never ever felt the way I feel about you. Im so greatful I found you! I love that I can tell you anything and know you're still going to love me in the end. You amaze me every single day with the being proud to say im your girlfriend or the willingness to help me with anything, or the way you make me feel with a single touch or hug or even look. I can't imagine not having you in my life anymore. I can't even seem to figure out how I did it before. I want to make you happy and proud of me, I want to be better for you and be the best I can. Im greateful for everything that has brought me to you. I trust you with everything that I am, and I know beyond a doubt you would never do anything to hurt me on purpose. I love holding your hand and being near you. I LOVE YOU! you're my rock and my sanity.

To my mom.... You're amazing and Im proud of you for doing what you're doing. I miss you every day but I know its for the best. I love you so much and thank you for always doing everything you can to help me and listen to me. you're a good mom! and it takes amazing strength to do what you're doing and im so glad you're getting to take some time for you. I love you once I love you twice I love you more than beans and rice.

To my Dad.... I love you! I'll always be daddy's little girl and you'll always be my favorite dad! you've done so much for me in the past. and I'll always be greatful even though sometimes I don't seem like it. Im greatful for all the knowledge you've shared with me and for the part of me that is you! I've learned alot from you and hope to still learn more. Im glad I chose you and mom as my parents and Im glad you chose me too! I couldn't have asked for better parents or a better childhood. you did so much for us and you are good dad.

To Ryan.... You are stronger than you know! I have endless faith that you will find your path and be where you need to be. I know you can turn things around make a great life for yourself you just need to focus on you and the good things for you. know that your family loves you to no end and we'll always be here even when it doesn't seem like it. keep your head up stay strong and do what you need to do! all the answers lie within yourself. and you'll find them all.

Thank you to everyone I may not have mentioned you're still in my thoughts always! Im going to work on getting myself more organized and if anyone has any advice I'd love to hear it! thank you!!