Saturday, January 5, 2013

Being a Mom has made me weak

I've always had a softy in me that feels a bit of my heart breaking when reading sad stories involving children, but since becoming a mom I can't make it through those same stories without bawling and holding my baby tight.

After the Sandy Hook shooting I don't think I put my son down for days, well aside from when I was at work. I cried (Ugly break down kind of cry) every single day for a week and I still have a hard time when I see signs and pink ribbons for sweet Emilie Parker. One of my supervisors and I even bought flowers to put on the counters at work in honor of her, because I just couldn't get her and the other sweet babies lost off of my mind.


I just read this blog post here and I'm still in tears looking at my son on the baby monitor wanting to run in and pick him up. I will be fastening all of my furniture to walls VERY SOON!!! I'd do it right now if I could. My son is now pulling himself up on EVERYTHING! He has pulled toys and bouncers over on himself but for some reason I haven't thought much about this.  I can't imagine going through something sooo awful! When I first brought baby home I had these horrible thoughts of waking up and finding him in his crib with a blanket wrapped around his head or some other unimaginable scenario, I can't even really say the words. I don't know what I would do with out this little person. he's only been in my life 7 months.  There are 2 people in this world I would literally die of heart break to lose, my son and husband. I don't even want to think about it.

But seriously people, secure your furniture, hug your children and tell them you love them. You just never know... and I pray none of you, or I, EVER go through something so horrible.