Life

I've lost many friends along the way. I've had secrets told and lies kept. I've felt trapped overwhelmed and entirely lost. Somedays I feel like I have no one to talk to and no where to turn. Sometimes I don't know what to say, a lot of times I have no interest in my own life so why would anyone else. Sometimes I'd rather write my feelings down then speak them aloud. Sometimes I just want to yell and scream and talk it all out. I used to have a passion for life, now I mostly feel lost. I feel betrayed at work and alone in my thoughts. I'm bored unchallenged and stuck. I don't know where to go or how to get that passion back. I hate being lied to, I hate feeling like I'm forcing people to do something. I've lost faith in most people and no longer trust anyone with out proof that they can be trusted. I'd rather hear the truth than a lie. Somedays I dream of moving far away, working on a movie set (doing what I don't know) and writing all my stories out. I need my passion back. Life isn't fair, they say you choose your own happiness, I think mine ran away.