lost years

Today I drove past the place where last I saw you.  I wanted so despretly to stop my car and go inside, to demand to see you, to hear you say my name in the goofy way you always did, to see your smile light your face like I remember so many times before. I wanted to beg you to sing your version of Blinks whats my age again.  I'll never be able to hear that song with out smiling and thinking of the way I remember you singing it, I never have been able to.  I hate the past few years I missed so much with far too many, and that is all my fault.  I'll always remember you pestering and laughing, never forget your smile.  Say Hi to the others I miss everyday, watch out for people here who miss you everyday now. bye kiddo and Im sorry.