It's my party let me cry for awhile!

First of all know these few things.  I love my son. I'm excited to meet him. I know I'm lucky to be having him and for the most part I am happy.  But know this too... this post may not be the happiest of times. Lets just get real for minute.

Most of my pregnancy has been okay. I wouldn't say great. I wouldn't say I love it and I wouldn't be strong enough to be a surrogate or give a baby up. It would be WAAAY to hard especially after everything you go through. So I have to give super props to those amazing women who do those things.

Everyone says its normal to start to get scared towards the end of your pregnancy. I always assumed they meant the giving birth part. But honestly.... I look forward to it, bring it!

I've been having some weird issues these last few weeks. Like my face is swollen and makes me want to cry. I've always mostly liked my face well you know its mine.. but now I look at it and see this:

Also I'm scared the swelling is because of my teeth and my mouth may permanently look like that! Okay maybe its a little irrational but its how I feel. And I have to say if I've let you take pictures of me in this state I must love you something fierce because I'm horrified by the camera right now!

I also used to have super cute ankles see:

I'm not showing you what they look like now. no way... lets just say they don't exist. I miss wearing my wedding ring on my finger instead of around my neck... Hell I'd settle for just feeling my fingers at this point, they've been all pins and needles for weeks.

Anyway this baby better not be late or I'll go crazy! If I haven't already...

Happy Mothers Day!

I have had lots of great examples of Mothers in my life and today I am especially grateful to all of them. From my Friends who have been rocking motherhood for years to the ones who have only just started. From all of my friends moms who were willing to be a mom to any of us crazy kids when needed to my stepmom with her endless cooking and sewing for all of us.

But none compare to this lady:

My MOM and me

My Mommy is always willing to listen to anyone, help anyone, give you the shirt of her back, and love the whole world.  It doesn't matter what you've done wrong or what you have said she will still love you. She's always been a mom to all of my friends and sometimes even to her friends. To the best mom I know I love you so much!  Happy Mothers Day!!

I'm also super thankful for this little guy:

For making me a Mommy. He has already stolen my heart!

If you're a Mom or Mom to be or someday plan to be:

 

Watch out or I'll release the hulk!

The closer I get to my due date with this baby the easier it is for me to want to blow up at everyone. Seriously I think I may go postal soon on some poor unsuspecting soul!

The other day I was sitting outside of my theater and a lady walked past with a few of her friends. We have these window decals up in our food court of the little boys from Pixars up coming movie Brave you know these ones:

Well the lady takes one look at the decals and sighs as she turns to her friends to say "there is no way I'll watch some movie about Ginger kids.. I mean seriously? Come on Disney!" it took about every ounce of Self control I own, which isn't much right now, to stay in my seat and not stand up and yell "really lady? Well I didn't want to come out here and watch some fat bitch parade either but what are you going to do?!" I don't know why it pissed me off so bad, I don't have red hair I've never been teased and called a Ginger there is no sore spot for me about the slur. But it was sooo rude! And maybe that comment was somewhat deserving of a little rage, albeit fueled by pregnancy hormones, but I get worse trust me.

Later that night a couple was walking down the halls talking about the movie posters. They paused in front of the total recall poster:

The lady turns to her boyfriend/husband/whoever.. And says "I saw this trailer! It looks really good. They put him into a dream and he doesn't know what's real anymore?" I rolled my eyes as I walked past them fighting the urge to push her over and watch her wobble like a weeble while yelling "it's a remake stupid! And I'm pretty sure you just described Inception!" I know I know.. seriously Andrea?! Who cares what people say about movie posters? But for some reason it seriously got on my nerves!

A few other things that have gotten me close to blow up range that are dumb? An unfair guest complaint about our super awesome management team. People not answering my phone calls or texts, seriously this has never bothered me before! And my hands constantly falling asleep.

What do I do to make myself feel better? I head to 7-11 for a slurpee and donuts..

Of course in the long run this will not make me feel better.. It'll make me feel like a bad parent already for not eating more healthy.. And then the slurpee is foamy and melty and I'm ready to let this guy out!

Ah well such is life... hopefully the rest of the day goes better.

Shuffle me this

Baby boy has been having a dance party all day.  He's a bit big for this and its making me extremely tired and sore... but in his honor I've decided to do one of those put your ipod on shuffle quizes for funsies. First though... We had our last Ultrasound yesterday, which means the next time I see my son I get to actually hold him! I'm 50% effaced and not dilated at all and baby is measuring in the 60th percentile. Anyway enough of the TMI and on to some fun.

How am I feeling today?
Get Ready -Rare Earth

Will I get far in life?
Do you right -311

How do my friends see me?
The Best Damn Thing -Avril Lavigne

What is my best friend's theme song?
Island of Wonder -Nelly Furtado

What is the story of my life?
Ride wit Me- Nelly

What was highschool like?
Time is Precious -311

How can I get ahead in life?
Satellite -Dave Matthews Band

What is the best thing about me?
Phantom of the Opera song -Me first and the Gimme Gimmes

How is today going to be?
Jumpin -Ceara

What is in store for this weekend?
Top of the World - Dixie Chicks

What song describes my parents?
Bringin Da Noise -'Nsync

To describe my grandparents?
Rhythm of the night -moulin rouge soundtrack

How is my life going?
Strong Enough -Stacie Orrico

What song will they play at my funeral?
Lilian- depeche Mode

How does the world see me?
Be with Me -VAST

Will I have a happy life?
Don't Let me Down -311

What do my friends really think of me?
Days -Train

Do people secretly lust after me?
Can't make you love me -Britney Spears

How can I make myself happy?
If I want to -Usher

What should I do with my life?
Headphones -Dirty Heads

What is some good advice for me?
Silence -DJTiesto

How will I be remembered?
Crack the Code -311

What is my signature dancing song?
Requiem On Water -Imperial Mammoth

What do I think my current theme song is?
Soul Meets Body -Death Cab for Cutie

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
The Beautiful People -Marilyn Manson



Well some of those are pretty lame and don't make sense but you get a taste of whats on my iPod I guess:) Plus I've had serious song A.D.D. all day anyway :)

Just 4 more weeks!

Wow I'm 36 weeks pregnant... I only have 4 weeks left!  Is that crazy or what??  This is what I'm looking like these days:

And this is more how I feel:

My emotions have been something like this the past couple of weeks:

And I think I've eaten about 100 boxes of these:

This morning my adorable husband was talking to sweet baby and he felt his little foot and I love the way his face lit up. I'm so lucky to have the most AMAZING husband on the planet. He told me today I'm a princess and he loves me.  I'll never get sick of how great he is.

With in the next 4 weeks I need to get everything all good and squared away at work. but I'm so excited to see my son. 4 more weeks everyone!!