Its just who I am

So I've realized that yes I may over think things sometimes but I have this need to understand everything. I need a why for things and I hate it when people won't just tell me why. I get over having my feelings hurt fast so if thats what you're worried about don't be. Its like math I can't do math because no one has ever been able to tell me why we need it.... So if you ever decide you don't want to be my friend or you don't want to talk to me just tell me why and I'll deal with it. I just need to know the details and understand.

Totally Awesome night!!!

Tonight was way awesome and fun! I got to spend time with some of my favorite people at the best sport and the best team won. Plus on top of that I got to jam to the new 311 song on my way there. Im on a crazy super high I need to sleep but Im far too wound up. Totally Awesome day! The game was fun as I sat there during the part I was pretty sure the Jazz were going to lose and I was feeling a bit down and was brought back up by crazy fun plans to figure out how to get to the cat walks. Then came 4th quarter and Oh wow did the Jazz pull it off it was so amazing and super intense! all followed but my own basketball game on the way to the car with a water bottle. Best night ever! Thanks Aubrey, Steve, Jamie, Nate and Ben for making it great!!

Hot yoga

So this morning I acutally got out of bed on a sunday and went to Hot Yoga... Yes Hot they keep the room at about 3 million degrees and its almost 2 hours long I really thought I was going to die. I have never sweat so much in my whole life!! I gave up about 45 minutes in and just laid there doing nothing but trying to breath and mostly falling asleep. and by the way the people who go to hot yoga wear basicly nothing. interesting strange litttle dudes thats all I gotta say. It was a great experience and it kicked my trash for sure..

hey you lyrics

You've changed your tunemany times since we've met

But I'll always recognize you

You are part of me I feel you, whether in Jamaica or in the Angel city

You're such a gift to me

Hey you I gotta tell you my long time friend

I think of all those years you saw me through tears

and the good times that we spend

Hey you You're my constant companion

You always let me explain just what I'm saying

and we've just begun

I've got one wish for this music to be an uplift

And I need an uplift to deal

There are few songs all the people can sing along one song

Come along and sing it for real

Hey you I gotta tell you my long time friend

I think of all those years you saw me through tears

And the good times that we spend

Hey you You're my constant companion

You always let me explain just what I'm sayingand we've just begun

As I wander around, town to town Lost and found When so many others come and go

The sweetness Pulls me through

Hey you I gotta tell you my long time friend

I think of all those years you saw me through tearsand the good times that we spend

Hey you You're my constant companion

You always let me explain just what I'm saying and we've just begun

Hey you You never turned your back on me when I gave up on myself

Hey you You never turned your back on me when I gave upon myself

State of Play and 17 again

So I watched State of play and 17 again last night. State of play was awesomely intense and interesting to watch it didn't feel like 7 reels at all. However it left me feeling a bit confused. I think there were a few things that were just left unanswered. Maybe I just need to watch it again? It has an amazing cast and they all do great in it. Its totally worth watching.

17 again was way cute and had some very funny parts. I had a killer headache and felt like I was going to die by the end of it but it was still good. Zac has an amazing body so that makes the whole thing worth it in itself.

Either way I think both are worth seeing. so check it out support the good theaters and go to the movies!

Things that are sexy

• A guy who can dress nice once and awhile but be totally comfortable and cuddly other times.

• If a guy makes a mistake and owns up to and really truely means to fix it. (ex. if a guy cheats on a girl and goes right home feeling truely sorry and tells her and talks it over with her, or gives her space to think if she needs it then talks it over with her and promises to really try to fix it, and means it. thats hott) So basicly Honesty is hott!

• Im all about the shoes a guy wears its one of the first things I look at, thats probably weird but thats me.

• Stick shift cars... lol even though I can't drive them its just sexy when guys do.. and Im not even saying it has to be a nice car, its more impressive to me if they bought themselves even if its trashy, than if mom and dad paid for it.

• Holding hands

• Guys who get into thier music and love to share it with you. (and making out to thier music is hott!)

• When a guy Plays with my hair or rubs my back

• when they notice you without you having to tell them (ex. Nice hair cut/ color)

• a guy who can cook

• Mixed cd's with all the songs that make him think of you

• being happy with each other even if there's nothing to do

• guys who will take care of you when your sick

• Guys who love their jobs

• falling asleep in a guys arms.

• a guy who likes to read

• A guy who will sing to you even if they suck

• Kisses on the back of the neck

• When a guy gives you his jacket cuz your cold.

• A guy who opens the car door for you, when you get in.

Happy Easter

So my picture is up on the adult dance and fitness website! yay! lol you love to see yourself working out so check it out:) I'll post them here to for fun

Well its late and its been a long day of work pole dancing and kicking it with the girls so I'll write more soon I'll leave you for now with this.... Boys are confusing:) Night my loves

Oh my Hannah Montana!

For the love of God do not go see this movie!!! I wanted to die! I had some hope that this movie would at least be semi decent like the Lizzie Mcguire movie but oh boy was I wrong! I want my hour and half back! I Just might find Miley and demand she give it back which rumor has it I may know just where to find her come friday..... possibly.

Anyway Dear Blog Im tired of idiot girls who fall for even more idiot boys and do any thing for them including missing things they enjoy just so idiot boy can prove to him self he can still wrap her around his finger and get her to do anything. Girls need to be stronger and say screw you, you don't respect me, all I am is a toy to you and I deserve to be treated better than this and one day I will be, and by someone better than you, and if not then Oh WELL I'll get a cat or two or three and I'll learn to be lonely and happy. Boys are not worth it!!!

In saying that girls don't need to wear super short skirts and ugly blonde wigs. They need to find themselves and be themselves and just be happy.

Hey you

Today was awesome! a beautiful 74 degrees outside and the new 311 song was released on the radio and I love it! Im so excited for the new cd June 2nd!

I got to go for a walk today which is where I do most of my thinking and I was thinking alot about friendship. and I think Im done trying to be friends with people who are only my friends when I contact them. Im tired of hypocritical people who get angry about things that I didn't even do but some how are my fault yet they turn around and do the exact same thing. I know I have made mistakes in my life and Im learning from them but if people cant see that then I can't fix it. I can't be in relationships with myself. I have 2 old friends who are getting married or so I hear and neither one of them have told me and that makes me sad. What can you do I guess.

always give yourself something to look forward to.... for me thats 311 on 6/11 and the new cd on 6/2!

Don't eat the chapstick

Have you ever met those girls who are good at getting guys to want them, not to marry them or date them but just want them? Is it just certian types of girls or is that all guys are incapable of anything else any more? How can guys be so sweet and charming and not mean a word of it? It makes no sense to me. Anyway just an observation....

Today I went to Yoga and loved it! Although Im already super sore and tired. Im just cuddled up on my Love sac watching Heroes. and loving my new place. I was really worried I'd be super lonely but it hasn't been so bad I really enjoy it so far. I feel more and more like I could do anything everyday. It no longer matters that some boy wanted some worthless girl who will never be even half of who I am I can be happy just being me and just being alone. Everything I do is for me and not for someone else who never even deserved me anyway. I've lost weight and learned to like working out I've moved into my own place and learned to not be lonely and I've done it all for me and me alone!

My Kings

I've started watching the TV show Kings on sunday night on NBC and its a really awesome show. I love the old kingdom feel of it yet its set in modern times. Christopher Egan is a total hottie too and plays the part well. Im a little nervous for macaulay culkin to join the cast next week but its a very interesting show and has a lot to it. 'you are mermaid in a sea of fish.'

Speaking of Kings my favorite King, played my favorite person ever, returns to show time tonight! thats right Jonathan ryhs myers returns for season 3 of the tudors! this season has my favorite of king henry the VIII's wives Jane. I'll miss Anne Boleyn because shes for sure his most entertaining wife but Jane has an awesome story and I can't wait to see how it plays out.

On another note I just want to say I love my girls and am so glad I got to spend sometime with them this weekend. They're my Queens and I love them to death! I hope they know I'd do anything for them!

So get your queens together and watch the hottie kings of sunday nights

Mac and cheese, Ellen, and time for work

Yup thats right Im eating the only thing in my house which is Mac and cheese and watching yesterdays Ellen! I need to leave for work in about 10 minutes... but I was just thinking I watched Double Jepordy last night and Oh wow I've never wanted to see someone die so bad! I think Im on a Bad men movie kick. And can I say Miley Cyrus is uber annoying I don't think I'll even watch mondays Ellen just because she's annoying in the commercials. Well I should get going... Thanks for reading the randomness :)

Sunshine Cleaning

Funny, sad and entertaining. Amy Adams is amazing as a women who lost her mother at a young age and later in life decides to start her own crime scene clean up business. Being a single mother in love with a married man she'd do anything to support her family. The relationships in this movie feel very real and all the characters draw you in to their lives.

This movie reminded me how awful most men are though why would you marry someone if you're going sleep with someone else. Stick with the one you love if you dump them for someone else don't think you can have them back if you're with someone else. And if you're not willing to leave that someone else you have no right at all to say the other girl can or cant date it is none of your business what that person does! further more if you're just using a girl, even if you're single and you don't want to make her your girlfriend or anything else you also have no right to get upset if she dates someone else.... Im just saying!

But go see the movie its really good!

What a thursday!

Oh today was long! But I love my Job even on the bad days I love it. I can't wait to go digital but I know I'll eventually miss the crazy thursdays... Maybe.. not the ones like tonight with both splicers broken and 2 build ups I couldn't start until 8pm. I suppose thats what happens when god of fixing splicers gets taken away. But thats a different rant for a different day.

Today was a sad day though I love My ER and am not sure what I'll do when I get off work on thursdays and can't sleep now... I guess I'll have to buy the seasons and start over! I loved the opening credits for ER tonight the old music and set up gave me goose bumbs! and hello Rory way to join on the last day!

But anyway its 4 am and I must sleep but I will share more and soon:)