Which Disney Princess?

First Merry Christmas!!

I'm trying to not be frustrated and think about things that make me mad today. So I figured lets talk about something happy instead!  I got Beauty and the Beast for Christmas from my adorable Husband, Why not discuss Disney Princesses?

Belle is my favorite Princess hands down! Why?  Well first of all the obvious, she LOVES to read.  I mean I can't turn my back on anyone who loves reading!  I'm extremely jealous of the library the Beast has I have to say.  I love the way she stands up for herself and really puts others first.  It doesn't matter to Belle whats on the outside she knows its whats inside that really matters.  I think she's a good role model for girls, Go Disney on this one!

Something that kind of bugs me about the princess and the frog princess. Everyone kept saying this is the first ever ethnic princess, oh I'm so excited. Well, she's not the first ETHNIC princess.  Ethnic means: of particular origin or culture: relating to a person or to a large group of people who share a national, racial, linguistic, or religious heritage, whether or not they reside in their countries of origin.  So really all princesses are of some ethnicity, but if we want to say not white, Okay.  What about Jasmine? she's Indian right? or Pocohontas, Native American.  Belle is French.  Ariel is half fish! Mulan is chinese.  That has always bugged me, I'm not raciest so I hope this doesn't come off as that but what makes Tiana more important or special than the rest of the princesses?  But its just my opinion and we all know what thats worth :) 

I still haven't seen Tangled... I know I work at a theater WTH? I want to but I've been too busy.

Really thats about all I have. But its a happy distraction! 

WIP update:  I'm just over 15,000 words! Im so amazed with myself.  I'm feeling guilty about all the swearing and violence in my novel due to my new calling in church.  I'm the 9 year old teacher now.  There maybe a few revisons when I do my 2nd draft.  But I can't see taking it all out, it makes people sound scarier which what I want. I've been thinking alot about it and we'll see how it goes. but for now onward with draft 1! 

Big Movie releases and Holidays at a theater

I'm trying at this point to figure out how to get to a certain point in my writing, some days it comes easier than others, today is a not an easy day.  So this is my break taking talk about what I do.

So I said I'd talk about Harry Potter but I thought I'll just make it about big movie releases in general so people can get an idea of my life.  and then I thought why not throw in Holidays too.  Most of you have probably heard my big holiday rant but I can go more into detail on a blog than I can on Facebook, are you excited yet? here it is :)

I have worked every single Thanksgiving, Christmas eve, Christmas Day, New years eve and New years day since I was 17 and started at the theater.  I'm pretty used to it and it doesn't bother me all that much, although it has been harder since I got married this year but that's a different story. But every single year just about every other person coming to watch movies on these days says to the employees "I'm really sorry you have to work today, that really sucks."  I've always just politely nodded and said "yeah, its okay"  even though I've heard it one million times already that day and the response I'm yelling at people in my head is "YOU ARE NOT SORRY!! IF YOU WERE YOU WOULDN'T BE HERE!!" So if you go to movies on Holidays just don't say that, we already know it sucks, trust me! Just try to be nice to us instead:)

And then inevitably you get the angry mother who had gathered her whole family to come to a movie on Christmas morning, who didn't bother to buy their 25 tickets before Christmas day and stands there yelling at the cashier that they've ruined Christmas because the movie is sold out.  Christmas is busy, buy tickets early.  Although I don't think I could consider it Christmas until someone has told me about how I've ruined it for them anymore, you'd be surprised how many times I've heard that working at the theater.  And that concludes Holidays at a movie theater.

Now for big movie releases.  First of all can I say the Twilight Fans are a totally different group.  They are certifiably 100% CRAZY!  If even the smallest thing goes wrong the fangs come out and they turn into the evil Vampires that they cheer against as they pine over eternally 18 year old Edward.  The sad thing is most of them are women who 25 or older.  Don't get me wrong I like twilight okay, but these people are NUTS!  There is a reason that we call them Twitards at the theater. 

Back when I first started working movie theaters for AMC, well Lowes when I started, people would line up for big movie releases.  Some would even camp outside the building for 3 days.  and we'd end up with a line that curved all the way around the building and folded back up the street.  I wish I had pictures from back then because it was insane! I've got to say the lines were actually kind of fun.  We'd roam them with trash cans making friends with everyone and spoiling the movie for those that made us angry, since usually we'd already seen it.  Granted again this is before Twilight, you'd be beat to death for even mentioning you'd already seen Twilight, and I'm not sure you would make friends in a Twilight line, unless you sparkled in the sun.  

Now that I work for Megaplex and we have the awesome assigned seating, we no longer do lines.  but people still want to show up early so we usually do pre parties.  Which in my opinion are more work than they're worth.  Its difficult because everyone already has to work for big releases so its hard to assign people to work the party.  But we still tend to find ways to have fun.  

Also you may be interested to know that for big releases we typically sell out all of our theaters for midnight shows.  To be able to do this it takes a ton of set up time to build prints and what not.  and usually we don't get enough prints to cover all of our 35mm projectors so we do something called interlocking.  which means we play one print in multiple theaters at the same exact time, well usually with a few minute delay between theaters.  I can do 3 at a time at my theater, since we're getting lower on 35's and higher on digitals. but I have seen some pretty awesome interlocks in my day.  This is the part that I love and have a true passion for, its why I do it. 

I think the worst part of midnight shows for big releases are big buy outs and setting up microphones but there's a million things in the AV side of my life, which could maybe be another story someday:)

Well that's my part on that... I need to end with I really do like my job in case this came out too whiny, because I do.  It's a super fun job and its not like all the craziness everyday, but its a huge ego boost when you get though it all as you walk out the door with sun coming up at 6am after midnights, and take a deep breath and say a silent thank you that the next one isn't for probably another 6 months.  

This ones for you ;)

It's been pointed out to me that I've been bad at keeping this blog up, so I thought I'd share a little bit just for you because I love you!

My husband and I went to the food court tonight before we went to a Jazz game and the only table available to sit at was directly across from Hot Dog On A Stick.  as we were sitting there and I was watching the girl go up and down up and down making lemonade my husband turned to me and said, wow that job is a bit degrading.  And the first thing I thought after that was 'Yeah I'd rather be a pole dancer than work at Hot Dog On A Stick' and my next thought was 'Hmm... Pole dancing, how can I write that into my book, that would be so cool!'  That's mostly where my brain has been at lately is my writing.  I actually feel like I have a strong story line with this one and I'm pretty excited about it even though most of it at this point is only in my head. 

My other great distraction lately has been Richelle Mead.  I've decided I want to move into her head.  If you haven't read any of her books you really need to.  The last chapter of the Vampire Academy came out on Tuesday and I ignored all of life to read it for two days.  In my opinion its the best ending to a series ever!

On another note we have two, yes I said two, offers in on two houses and because they are short sales and because our loan lady is out of the office until tomorrow we're waiting... for who knows how long.

Well its reading time in my house so I'm going to go read :)  I'll be back soon though and maybe I'll tell you all how Harry Potter went, big movie releases are always good times!  LOVE YOU

Puppy Kisses

We happen to be starting the road to buying a house, which we've decided to get a new dog once we get a house.  Yes I know, me having two dogs, scary right?  Kody wants a little brother :)

Speaking of little brothers I have a beautiful new welt on my leg thanks to my little brother! the punk shot me with a BB gun.  although I did shoot him back and made him take his shirt off to do it, his welt looks worse than mine so I guess it all turns out fair, or maybe only fair to me.

Well I'm avoiding writing, which by the way I've ditched dear Jane and started a new story.. so back to the grind :)

floating away

I did it.  I told him about you.  I opened my heart and bowed my head and told my past. I poured out my regrets and hurts of the years gone by.  I know it wasn't all you I had a part in it too, that's for sure, its the reason my heart has been so hurt.  But you know what?  I'm still my heavenly fathers daughter, I'm still my earthly parents daughter, and I'm the wife of the greatest man I've ever met.  I never thought I could ever possibly deserve to be forgiven I thought I'd always be an outcast of sorts. I'm learning to find forgiveness for myself, to move on in life. Things are happening for me I never thought possible.  I will have my family in this life and in the next.

I sincerely hope you the best in life.  I truly wish for you to do the things you need to do; and do them right, not just do them because your bored or merely curious, as I've witnessed before.  these are not things I could have said about you just 2 months ago, then the things I would have said were hurtful probably more so to me than you, since you don't care anymore. I feel the difference within my heart and yet I'm still me.  somehow I thought bringing about this change meant losing me...

I look forward from here and I'm turning my back on the past, I will no longer look back.  I know that I will be forgiven.  I know that I will do my best to do what is right. and I know I want to spend forever with my husband, who I couldn't have met without you in a round about way so I guess thank you, and good bye.

 I feel free for the first time in years even though the guilt is still only a little less today, and hopefully a little less again tomorrow, and for that I thank my heavenly father.

Be who you are.

I just want to tell everyone to be who they are. If you feel you are a child of God you are. don't worry about what other people think or say. Try to do things that make the world a better place, but always be you.  Don't judge other people for the things they do its not your place, they will be judged in thier own time and for what is also not up to you.  Its okay to stay away from people who make you feel sad or wrong if you feel they are leading you down a bad path.  Just be who you are. try to be honest with out being mean.  These are the things I try to live by, the things I have been working on.  Am I perfect? NO, no one is... If I've decided to not be your friend its not because Im judging you, you can take it however you'd like to but the real reason is, You don't make me feel okay, you say or do things that hurts who I am.  I want everyone to just be them, Why is it not okay I just be me? I don't need people checking up on me, just let me be me.  Im an honest person even though I know there are some out there who say otherwise, but thats just them being them and thats okay. JUST LET ME BE ME!  If you feel you need to lie about me or make up things about me, if you try to stop me from being me, you don't know me, nor do you have a right to know me anymore.  Just thought i'd share 

lost years

Today I drove past the place where last I saw you.  I wanted so despretly to stop my car and go inside, to demand to see you, to hear you say my name in the goofy way you always did, to see your smile light your face like I remember so many times before. I wanted to beg you to sing your version of Blinks whats my age again.  I'll never be able to hear that song with out smiling and thinking of the way I remember you singing it, I never have been able to.  I hate the past few years I missed so much with far too many, and that is all my fault.  I'll always remember you pestering and laughing, never forget your smile.  Say Hi to the others I miss everyday, watch out for people here who miss you everyday now. bye kiddo and Im sorry.

Life

I've lost many friends along the way. I've had secrets told and lies kept. I've felt trapped overwhelmed and entirely lost. Somedays I feel like I have no one to talk to and no where to turn. Sometimes I don't know what to say, a lot of times I have no interest in my own life so why would anyone else. Sometimes I'd rather write my feelings down then speak them aloud. Sometimes I just want to yell and scream and talk it all out. I used to have a passion for life, now I mostly feel lost. I feel betrayed at work and alone in my thoughts. I'm bored unchallenged and stuck. I don't know where to go or how to get that passion back. I hate being lied to, I hate feeling like I'm forcing people to do something. I've lost faith in most people and no longer trust anyone with out proof that they can be trusted. I'd rather hear the truth than a lie. Somedays I dream of moving far away, working on a movie set (doing what I don't know) and writing all my stories out. I need my passion back. Life isn't fair, they say you choose your own happiness, I think mine ran away.

The Dark Divine!

I just recently finished this book and loved it! Check it out.

It's one of those days

It's lame how life works out sometimes. And it's lame how I get annoyed and mad over stupid little things. My annoyance today is because of pictures. I'm mad at ruined pictures I have to keep always, and eternally sad over pictures I'll never have. I've hit a point of not caring about anything. Nothing really matters, then I go through pictures and get mad over little things. Can I just sleep for 2 weeks.. Wake me when eclipse hell week is over.

Dear RB

Hey little brother, you’ve got so much to discover
Can’t you conceptualize what you’re doing to our mother

Those drugs that you choose
Leave you left with the blues
Trust me I‘ve been there
To me its old news
Pending disaster
You’re heading there faster
It's tearing me up
To know you get so plastered

Because you’re caught up in the scene at the age of nineteen
Maybe so was I at the age but I had a dream
And those goddamn powdered drugs
They’ll fill you with doubt
You’re just getting sucked on up in it
And you have to break out

You blacked out on the floor
You told me, the next day they found you that way
Those damn medications had your back baby
It hurt when they took them all away

You’re feeling so bad
You’re looking for a place to land
Help me understand
How in hell it got so out of hand

I know that it's hard
But you’re risking being permanently scared
You’re hurting inside
So you’re flirting with tragedy on the dark side

Those drugs that you choose
Leave you left with the blues
Trust me I’ve been there
To me it's old news
Hey little brother
You messed up another chance
Sooner or later you must take a stand

At the edge of it
All where you begin
To consume that product to its very end
How much time is left
Will you collapse
Will you confess you're in a spiritless void
Spinning into excess

You blacked out on the floor
You told me, the next day they found you that way Those damn medications had your back baby
It hurt when they took them all away

You’re feeling so bad
You’re looking for a place to land
Help me understand
How in hell it got so out of hand
Go


-311, little brother

My Seattle/forks/Portland trip

I'm planning a trip in august that I'm totally excited for! I haven't bought tickets yet because I'm hoping to find some peeps to come with. But here's my plan:)
8/6/2010: fly into Seattle and get there around 8pm.
8/7/2010: explore a little of Seattle. Then head on out to port Angeles. Do some shopping and eat at the Bella resteraunt:)
8/8/2010: go to forks, and do all the twilight touring. I know it's nerdy but I think it sounds fun!
8/9/2010: drive down the coast to Portland. That night at 7 my new favorite author, Richelle Mead, is doing a book signing. I'm totally in awe of her! Plus I hear this bookstore is pretty top of the line fabulous.
8/10/2010: fly home from Portland, and be back by 11am.

Anyway that's my plan and I'll go by myself iffin I have to;) but if you want to join me let me know:)

Say it outloud

So I've been toying with idea of writting a book. I have a strange imagination, and have several stories I've always considered putting to paper. I feel strange saying it out loud to people. I don't know if it's because I'm self conscious about it, or because I hate to fail when people know or expect something of me. I'm also not the best with grammar, I get pretty frustrated. I could list excuses for days I'm sure. Maybe I'll give it a try.

Everytime I think of you I get mad

Backstabber lyrics by ke$ha

Backstabber

Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement
All alone, cause your little conversations
got around, now look at what we all found out
(look at what we, look at what we all found out)

You have got a set of loose lips, twisting stories
All because you're jealous
Now I know exactly what you're all about,
And this is what you're all about..

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

(Talk Talk Talk talk talk talk)
I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life,
from other bitches with all of your lies,
wrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth shut your mouth
Shut your fucking mouth

Honestly, I think its kinda funny that you waste
your breath talking about me,
Got me feeling kinda special really (so this is what your all about)


Girl, your such a backstabber,
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Katie's just there repping my style,
Damn, Jeanie why you gotta tell the secrets about my sex life?
All I ever did was drive your broke ass around,
Pick you up, take you out,
when your car broke down


Girl, your such a backstabber,
Oh girl, your such a shit talker,
Everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
(taking and twisting it down your so manipulating .oh.)
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

talk.talk.talk.
(taking and twisting it down your so manipulating .oh.)
Girl Talk talk
your looking like a lunatic
Everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Everybody knows yeah...
your looking like a lunatic
and everybody knows yeah..

everybody knows

Who me? Couldn't be!

(warning I can't sleep so I'm just going to ramble hopefully get some of brain scatterness out)

Sometimes being a girl is lame. I like running with the boys, always have and I can run with the best of them, and currently do. :) I love my job and the more I learn the more i like it. It gets stressful sometimes but then I Learn something new, and that's fun. I miss my friend, I'm sad he's lost, and doesn't care about me anymore:( but I love my husband, he's so amazing! Just small things like the way he holds my hand when I get home at night and he's sleeping:) it's cute. I love big bang theory it cracks me up. I probably shouldn't have cut my hair again, it's too short to pull back now, but I do like it. It just makes work difficult when I need to tear down and what not. Damn my crazy need to cut my hair when I feel like I've lost control. I've been sad for the past 2 days, I feel like I trusted 2 people with the most important day of my life so far, and now the only thing most people think about when they think of MY day is them. And I'm sad that my one month was spent being put down (not by my amazing hubby FYI), not even sure still what I did to deserve it all. I want my anger back I like it better;) haha. Oh I've started walking again! I love my trail:) I need to sleep hopefully this got some of my brain spinning out and I'll be able to:) I just have muse stuck in my head, I love muse, wish I coulda gone to the concert. Next time! Goodnight world:) sorry for the rambling my head is a scary place.

Dear crown amp people

Dear crown amp people(especially repair shop),

I would like to invite you to private screening of nations pride in theatre number 4. Please notice how horrible the sound is, and take your seats. The doors will now be locked, enjoy!

Sincerly

A very unhappy projection manager.

P.s. eat shit and die, or fuck off at least.

My plan to become shosanna

Theater 4 has become my worst enemy. I feel like I've done so much and nothing is getting better. it makes me crazy! I really need my amps back and Im powerless. :( I don't need to blow up nazi's but Im naming theater 4 hitler. anyway thats my plan :)

Dead to me

busted. go die!

no respect left

Oh changed up some info in my family blog :) I'll remember life how I want to. the way that doesn't ruin my wedding.

For you

If you had anything to do with ruining my weekend and I find out you'll be forever dead to me.
Lots of respect lost this week.

Wild world

Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'
Baby, I'm grievin'
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
and I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two
Because I never wanna see you sad, girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware


Baby, I love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Grr!

GRRR. I can't take it anymore. I got on facebook for 5 seconds to do some deleting. This whole shitty bullshit situation has now brought someone back into our lives, that I don't want in my life right now. I want to go back to being a newly wed I don't care about your shit. you're all a bunch of cowards. You have tainted my perfect wedding and I don't want you around anymore. Im glad this is more important to you than me. but then come to find out you were only my friend because you wanted free movies, so I guess I never meant anything to you.

Are you kidding me?

I guess the only reason to be friends with me is the free movies. Apparently it only takes 10 seconds to fall in love. And Miley Cyrus needs to be stabbed with a fork in the eye.

The first step is admitting you have a problem

Hi my name is Andrea and Im addicted to Facebook.
Okay I have had a really rough and terrible week. Not with my marriage that part is amazing and I have the best husband ever. but with some other bull shit that in my opinion has been made worse because of facebook. I have to stay away for awhile.
I have a problem and Im addicted to Facebook
I beleive in the power of my self and my husband to help me get over it and stay away.
I realize the parts I have played in my addiction. and I have made a decison to stay away from facebook and the current sitution.
I am sorry for any part I have had in the feelings that have been hurt.

God Grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change

the courage the change the things I can

and the wisdom to know the differnce.

So if you need to get a hold me you can always text, call or email. my email address is aatchison1985@gmail.com

LOVE YOU! and sorry if this post offends anyone its not meant to.

Dear self, I forgive you

Why does it feel this way inside of me? Why can't I let go of the hate I have, its all against myself. Dear self, I forgive you! It doesn't work. I can burry the hurt I can I hide from the Anger. ah its better. Let the Numb sink in. Move on, Find everything you need in life. Im so happy.
Betrayal, severe disapointment, you were supposed to be my bestfriend. you're supposed to be smarter than this. You're supposed to love me like I love you. And You, you of all people were supposed to learn from my self hatred, you helped me dim the pain.
Why does it feel this way inside of me? Dear self, I forgive you! I don't accept, the pain is back the numb is gone. I hate what I did. I hate who I hurt. I hate that part of me. the tears start. the anger comes back. How could you do this to me? to her? you never deserved either of us. I need to say it to someone! Dear you, you don't deserve either of them you will hurt them both! Is it fair? no. Do I love you Yes. not him he killed a part of me that will never come back. but I can't help but relate you to him. Its not my situation. its not me. it shouldn't hurt me. but the numb is gone.
God I miss them. my sweet little girls. I loved them like they were my own. I Hate him for stealing them from me, no I hate him for giving them to me and then stealing them from me. How big are they? what are they doing? Do they even remember me? Don't think about them it hurts too much. don't think about him, theres too much anger. just stop the tears. just stop the hurt.
I don't deserve him. Hes so good! he's so sweet. He really truely loves me and Ive never loved someone this way. I can't and won't live with out him. he'd never hurt someone or break something the way I have. I don't deserve it. I never thought after all I have done I would get heaven. I love you! you make me happy!
feeling inside of me please go. Dear self, I forgive you. maybe one day it will work.

Its Just who I am.

I love my Fiance with all my heart. I enjoy my Job even though it eats up most my weekends. I always wear socks that don't match. I miss my grandmas and wish I'd known them better. I don't always remember everything but I love the memories I have. It makes me sad when friends die or get sick, even if I haven't seen them in years. I think iPhone is the best phone ever. I love my friends and wish I could take their pain and sadness away. I like to sit and watch tv when Im home the little time Im home. I love half baked icecream, mt dew, and Boccias. Im addicted to twilight even though I fought it for a long time. I always get the same things when I eat at resteraunts. Sometimes I can't sleep at night. Sometimes I just need my gilmore girls. I like pole dancing. I like cuddling and spending time with the love of my life. I like building up movies. I hate waking up. and Im just me.