Well, Hello school. Yup I do remember you.

You know what I hated most about school while I was in it.  Taking tests. I swear I am the worlds worst test taker. But you know what I did all day today?  I took tests for like 3 hours.  Why? because I had to in order to go back to school.  Which is already causing angst.  I can do this... I can do this... I can do this...

Once the results came back I found Yay! I had past them all, but if I would've just got 10 more points in the math part (you know the part I'm uber bad at) I could have tested out of the math and been done with it. So for 5 more dollars (as opposed to the 200ish to take THE math class) I can take the test again and hope for 10 extra points.  My down fall?  Fractions! Ugh.

But all that testing left me with a horrible terrible no good very bad headache. And the hubs (Okay me too) wanted to go out and get a box spring for our bed.  Ours broke in the move and we've been using the one from the guest bedroom. So out we went, to the furniture store where we paid some God awful amount for a years worth of delivery fees.  But the kicker... if your purchase is under 300 dollars you have to pay a delivery fee anyway.  What the HELL!? then the sales clerk says, oh we don't have any in stock, but we can have one delivered to us from the warehouse tomorrow.  Could you pick it up then? ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME??? They pass my house going from the warehouse to this effing store!!! I got a bit cranky at that and said "Yeah NEVERMIND! this place is a joke!" Needless to say this left me with a worse headache.

There's a new home goods store or something or other just near our house, so as I got off the freeway from the failed box spring outing I thought maybe they sell mattresses although I doubt it.  But we went to check it out anyway.  Of course they don't its like a Pier 1 Imports in case you were wondering.  Hubs did find a pretty sweet Ice cream scoop. 

It has a rubber back!

Of course I went out wearing jeans that are too big for me (Surprising I have some seeing as everything seems to be too small for me these days.) and clothes I had spilled on... and of course I see people I know everywhere I go.  Not complaining I love seeing people I know.. just not when I look like I rolled around in dumpster. But after it was all said and done I was beyond ready for bed and my book.  Oh the one bright side of the day! Succubus Revealed is finally here!!

And something else I've learned... when I have a stressful day I want to paint my house. So tomorrow I'm going to try something new... we shall see how it turns out and maybe I'll share with you!

For now I need sleep, okay lets be real I'm gonna read. I'm not even tired, silly messed up sleep schedule, you kill me! Oh also I didn't mention BIG BROTHER!!! Okay I just did but gull!

Previously On BIIIG Brother

Okay I've talked about it a little.  Everyone knows its an obsession.  I LOOOVE Big Brother.  I was starting to get a little down about this season because all the players are gone and we're left with the useless people really.  But praise the heavens that they're kind of Dumb!

Here's the thing.  I NEVER thought I'd say man I hope Rachel makes it to the final 2. She drives me nuts!  But really since Brendon left the 2nd time she's been amazingly chill.  She hasn't been the player she was last year, which lets hope she can step it up and when POV this week, but I sadly want her in the final 2.  I want Jordan to win again and I want the evil trader Shelly to be sent packing. What a two faced lying beast of a woman! I cannot believe how she continually says she wants to be an example for her daughter then she acts the way she does and says the lies she tells. At this rate Shelly your daughter is gonna end up in prison... I hope she doesn't watch your example in the house! But Jordan and Rachel got the chance of a life time this week... don't eff it up ladies... play play play!



The evil trader Shelly



Rachel and Jordan
For the win ladies!

On the other hand Jordans blow up at Shelly was AMAZING I never thought Jordan could be so mean!  it was awesome!

Anyway  I'll stop boring you with my love of Big Brother.. I promise my next post will have no big brother... okay I can't promise that.  But I'll try really hard!

My how you've changed.

The other day a friend of mine said to me, "You have really calmed down since I met you."  I had to ask him what he meant, because I thought he meant I was less angry than I used to be. But I had just finished one of my many rants to him about how everyone should jump off a bridge.  He laughed at me, because apparently I had said something about people smoking and drinking. (I really don't judge people, it was about drinking and smoking while pregnant if we're being honest, which is something I NEVER would have done.)

But a year and a half ago I was like this on my nights off.

I can't beleive I'm sharing these pictures!

Where would we be without the wild nights

Now my nights off are spent more like this:



My oldest guilty pleasure

My newest obsession



All because two people fell in love

Or practicing for when the zombies attack and I become one.



Okay maybe I haven't changed too much.





But seriously... do I regret the changes I've made in my life?  NO.  Are they easy choices I make now?  I'd be lying if I said they were. In fact most the time life is way less interesting.  I have my reasons for thinking its the right thing to do though, not only for me but for the people I love most. I'm still friends with all of my old friends. I don't try to change thier life styles. but I guess I have changed. Growing up is hard.  But I'm still happy, I love my husband, and life will always change.  I hope it only gets better for everyone!

What has changed the most about you?

Oh the anxiety!

So I have anxiety.. yup its true I do.  It's been mostly under control lately.  But when my sleep schedule is messed up and I get mostly zero time with my husband.. well apparently it grows a second head and reappears.

Last night there was lightning.

And I kept thinking I was getting pulled over or abducted by Aliens.  Which considering I'm at war with the aliens, remember, It's a very plausible fear.

But every time the lightning would appear I would jump like someone grabbed me.

It was ridiculous.  Then I came home and watched Big Brother.  It was double eviction night.  The most stressful night of every season. They got rid of one I was excited to see go. and another that made me pretty sad and cranky.

Peace out sucker!

WHY!!!!???

Then it was 3 am. And my legs hurt... for no apparent reason really except to help keep me awake. Maybe I have that restless leg thing.

Or maybe because of my anxiety I'll just make up random things to keep me awake even longer. Maybe I'm a Hypochondriac... does saying that make me more of one?

I need a week on a beach.

What causes your Anxiety... or is it just me?

Can I move into your brain?

So there's this author.  You know the one, I went to see her in Portland and of course when she came to SLC.  The first book in her Bloodlines series came out yesterday.  and you know what?! It's just as awesome as the rest of her books! I devoured it! It took me very little time to read and I'm just as in love with this as I was the Vampire Academy series and the Georgina Kincaid series.  Which I'm dying for the last book in that series! which comes out next week!! But if you haven't read any Richelle Mead I highly recommend picking up one of her books! She's amazing.  But as a warning if its Bloodlines you're interested in you should read VA first. Bloodlines is a spin off from VA and I think it would make more sense.

I have that sadness/awe I always have when I finish one of her books but I'm soo happy to have Adrian back in my life:) And next week Seth will return!  We all know I feel about Seths!

What books are you looking forward too?

Yup thats me on the floor you can just step over me

So I've always been taught that we are not held responsible for Adam's transgressions. that we will be judged and held accountable only for our own mistakes.  But I'm not entirely sure that we (and when I say we I mean women) aren't held accountable for Eve's transgressions. if you don't who I'm talking about check this out.

Sometimes I think being a girl is the meanest thing someone could think up.  Yes that's right I'm going to talk about the big red dot in the room. 

The thing that causes women to turn into complete bitches and crying sniveling balls on the floor once a month, at least that's what happens to me.

I have this theory that because once upon a time some unknowing lady took from the fruit of the forbidden tree of knowledge, that all women get punished with pain and crankiness.

I don't know about you but once a month I turn into an insomniac

I want to punch everyone.

I cry just because you looked at me funny.

I yell because you touched me when you walked past.

and I curl up on the floor (yup any floor, once even on the floor of the 100 year old high school bathroom when I was 17.) and wait for death to come take me away from the pain that is girldom.

And yet we're taught as a society (built entirely by men, in my opinion) that having AF (aunt flow) in town is supposed to be a glorious thing.



that we're supposed to suck it up and be proper women all the time.

Or "just take a midol already."  which by the way if you say to me you're likely to end up on the I'm going to punch you list. also on a side note Midol does really odd things to me... I once got kicked out of Interior Design in High School because the quack teacher thought I was on a drugs, and I had taken Midol and missed lunched. needless to say I left the classroom dropping my book on the floor telling her "don't worry I won't ever come back because you have no clue what you're talking about, in life or this stupid class."  It's a wonder I graduated highschool.  but I had a free ditch period that whole semester! and yes it was the same semester I got a 1.57 GPA Coincidence.  yeah probably not.

so yeah thats me curled up on the floor.. feel free to just step over me and continue on with your day.

Concert

At a concert girls tend to wear stupid clothes okay mostly shoes.

Come on! you're at a concert... what are you going to do wearing those shoes!

At a concert boys push each other around alot

Really you call that dancing?  it seems violent to me.

But all in all the 311 concert was AMAZING they played a lot of old songs and we were soo close!

It was a beautiful night!

Lessons Learned

Today I learned that its okay to swear at my team members just as long I don't say degrading things while in the midst of my swearing. So watch out team members!

Okay not really I won't swear at my team members but I thought it was an interesting lesson.

I asked my nephew if he was excited for school to start and he stuck his lip out and told me 'I hate school!'  I guess they're learning young these days.

I learned that you can fit 3 adults and 3 small children into 4 movie theater seats.  I think this should save us money! oh don't worry we'll only use 4 of the seats!

I've realized I just don't care about the lives of people I used to know.  They always seem to ask me questions and it just never occurs to me to ask people questions.  well until they've asked me one and I ask it back. does this make me a bad person? I'm also pretty sure I just zone out when people talk to me.

I've learned that when I get home from vacation EVERYTHING breaks at work.  I think my booth gets sad when I leave so it has to prove its angry when I get back or something.

What are some lessons you've learned?

I'll sing a tune for you

I'm BAAACK!

Vacation was Awesome!  My little sisters wedding was beautiful! Michigan was Gorgeous as always. However I'm thinking my next vacation needs to be Family free.  Somehow between my family and the Hubs family I end up feeling like I'm on an episode of the Jerry Springer show.

But I still love them all. I just need a vacation from my vacation.

So The 311 Concert is in just over a week! I'm uber excited and I've been thinking a lot about Music and its influences. I've been listening to some music I don't often listen to. (some of it not by choice) and I've got to say, a lot of songs sound an awful lot like 4 different cell phones going off at once. It's a bit irritating. I also decided that I don't think I could have married someone who didn't have the same taste in music as me.  Is that strange?  I love listening to GOOD music and I'm glad the Hubs and I are on the same page as far as that goes. If he had to listen to ringtones in the car I think I'd jump out while we were going 65 down the freeway.

I think I feel so strongly about music because its the one thing that's always there, when I'm happy, sad, mad, tired, in love, or broken hearted.  311 once again got it right with this song:



What songs do you listen to when your happy?  Is it just my family or do all family vacations turn out a bit crazy?