How the Kitchen became an enemy

So You all know I'm excited for this little one to come into my life right?  Well I just want to talk about the things I miss a little bit. It's not to be taken as I'm not excited still:)

The things I miss:

• Hot tubs... I'm glad we don't still live in our apartment where we could look outside and see the hot tub!
• NyQuil!  I've had a cold and its miserable.
• My Kitchen... just walking into it makes me want to throw up. it's annoying!
• Normal brain function... this is why I don't blog or you get something really short, or you know lists
• Ibuprofen... nuf said

Anyway I'm sure there is more but my brain is well.. not normal:) But in good news We might get to find out the sex of the baby on the 20th!!

And so its Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!  What is everyone up to today?  We're going to my Dad's for dinner and then I'm off to work.

Anyway in the sake of it being a holiday I'll make this quick!  I just want to share a few things I'm thankful for.

First of all my Husband!  He's the greatest!  I'm so happy and lucky I found him. He's truly the love of my life. I wouldn't be who I am without him!

My tiny growing baby!  I can't tell you how excited I am to meet this little person!

I'm thankful for my family all of them!

I'm thankful for my house and the safety it provides.

I'm thankful for Jambot, Jenn, Aubrey, and all of my other amazing friends!

I'm thankful for my job... even though I'd love to find something that I don't have to work the holidays... but its a good job:)

I'm thankful for all of you!  thank you for reading and supporting my crazy mind!

Why its so hard

I like writing because I like knowing a story no one else knows.  I'm kind of mean that way.  I think If I were able to get my hands on more ARC's I would be such a rub it in your face reviewer, 'Guess what I got to read that you didn't?' Hmm hmm!? Well since the question has been asked we'll go off subject (which is kind of on subject in a way) ANSWER IT!!!

Yup, I got to read Brodi Ashtons Everneath, AND YOU DIDN'T HAHA! AND its AMAZING! Okay but the thing is I don't get to post my review on Bookworm tells all until January 2nd which is only a little bit before it comes out so this the only time I get to rub it in your face.

Anyway.... back on track, its hard for me to write the story that no one knows because if I sit at my computer I'll inevitably get on twitter, and facebook and pintrest... I so LOVE pintrest, I mean its full of pretty pictures! Also if you can't tell its extremely hard for me to stay on one subject, is it possible for A.D.D. to get worse just because your pregnant? Okay lets be real I've always been distracted by pretty pictures, I just never had one place to go to stare at them all.

If I sit and write in a notebook I end up jumping all over the place with scenes that flood my mind, I love writing in notebooks.  but I rarely put those scenes into the computer... they're good too.

I think I have a decent story idea, but I'm convinced only other people with really fast A.D.D. infected brains would get it.  Do I think I'll ever get published? Eh never say never but I'm also not saying I will.  But I know that Jenn will someday! And at her signing we'll stalk all the other authors who may show up with giddy school girl enthusiasm. How do I know she will?  She wrote a WHOLE book and its really good!  and she's in the middle of another that is also really good. (yes Jenn I've been reading I'll finish I promise!)  As for me I'm off to find beautiful vacation spots to put on pintrest!

How is your writing going?

Oh the voices

I've been ignoring my writing for a very long time.  Kind of like most everything else.  Most of my days have been filled with not feeling good, force feeding my self and sleep. But I've been thinking alot about my writing again.  My WIP that has been a WIP for quite a bit of time has been calling to me.  My Main Character has gotten a voice, one that screams at me and shows me things while I sleep.  Granted my dreams have been intense the past few months but the dreaming about talking to my MC is quite new.  She is pushy, and mad that she's been ignored.  Also I have had her ALL wrong.  So I'll probably be starting from the beginning with her.

On a related note, we went and saw Anonymous on Sunday.  It was soo good! Also remember how I wasn't sure about Jamie Campbell Bower as Jace?  I feel much better about this choice after seeing him in Anonymous.

'The Voices! I can't stop the voices! I'd go mad if I didn't write down the voices!'

Have you seen Anonymous yet?

Why the radio (or well... Internet) silence?!

Everyone keeps asking where I've gone. Why I haven't posted lately. Well I'm ready to tell. I'm super horrible at keeping secrets. So I figured if you can't keep it quiet don't say anything at all! I know I know that's supposed to be if you can't say something nice don't say anything at all. Am I rambling? Is it driving you crazy? Do you want to know what the big secret is?


Drum roll.......................

Yup We're having Baby number 1!! We've been keeping quiet and we were going to wait until 12 weeks to tell most people but like I said.. I suck at keeping secrets, so I'll answer a few frequently asked questions!

FAQ's:

1. How far along are you? : I am 10 weeks. and I'm due on June 1st 2012
2. Are you going to find out what you're having?: Yes we are but we probably won't know until sometime after Christmas.
3. Did you know you'll be 6 months pregnant for 311 day?: Yes I do and no you can NOT have my ticket I will need that last get away :)
4. What are you going to name the baby/Have you thought of any names?: We have talked names and we're not sharing.
5. How have you been feeling?: Sick, I hate all food everything is gross. One night my toothbrush tasted Old and it made me extremely ill for 2 hours. Excited to have this cute little person who is half me and half Hubs. On edge, all I want to do is sleep, read, or sleep. But I can't sleep because our neighbors dog is the devil. If he goes missing it wasn't my fault!

Anyway... If you have other questions ask! and I'll be back to blog now that I know I won't slip up.

Why are you telling that story?

Do you ever just stand around talking to people about random things through out the day? Well do you ever wonder what possesses people to tell you the things they do?

Like the time you found out someone you work with used to run a meth house and probably knows a little too much about the gang community near where you live. Meanwhile you stand there with your eyes wide open staring at them like you've never seen them before (even though you see them everyday) you're contemplating what to say or how quickly you can get away. I'm not really sure why I needed to know that.

Or what about the time the random customer tells you all about the first time they saw Lion King in the theater and how magical it was. and how they hope they can bring their kids to see it while its in its two week run... blah blah blah and 20 minutes later your still holding their ticket saying well Killer Elite is down the hall and to your left. As you wonder why it is they didn't just bring their kids now. and also how it is that you yourself remember Lion King in theatres the first time, yet you wouldn't go blabbing to random strangers about it.

Or when you tell someone I have a headache and they go off for 40 minutes about how they knew someone who claimed they had a headache and they went to take a nap and never woke up. Meanwhile you smile and nod and think to yourself Oh My Hell I'm not going to sleep until this headache is gone, or ever again!

I was just wondering what it is that makes people just have to tell their stories.  Is it that they just need to fill the silence?

So Long, Farewell....

This week is a strange one for me.  For the past 9ish years I have spent my working life with film. building it up, tearing it down, threading projectors, fixing brain wraps, picking up dropped prints (some I dropped myself), changing cues, changing trailers, splice.. splice... splice... splice... and of course:

watching for the cigarette burns

But starting next Friday there will be no more of that.  My 35's are being switched out,

And the new pretty digitals will take their places.

I love getting lost in the bustle of Thursday nights there's something magical about taking a bunch of reels, and a few trailers, and turning them into an entire movie. It's soon to be a lost and forgotten art.  It makes me sad to think I've already built my last print. I've already screened my last 35mm film. and tomorrow I will thread my last projector. *NO I'm not crying!*  I'm not a big fan of change.  I think I'll feel lost and unsure what to do with myself.  I'd like to sing this song to my projectors, (Okay, you caught me, I've been singing it to them all week):



On the bright side there will be less money going out to payroll. The picture will always be crisp clean perfect from the first run to the very last. And the images will seem so real you won't need fancy vacations ever again.

I'm going to miss my 35's! I'm off to spend my last two shifts with them.  Help in saying good-bye!

VEGAS BABY!!!!!!

Guess what I get to do for my 2 year anniversary?! Yup I get to go to 311 day 2012 OH. MY. GOSH.  I'm so freaking excited!!!!!! I've always always wanted to go to a 311 day, and never ever thought I'd be able to! WAHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! and yes its in VEGAS!!! land of all things shiny!

except you know 2012

Speaking of all things shiny I have two new prettyful projectors at work! I'm a little sad my 35's are about to leave forever but I'm excited for how awesome they look!  Well I'll do an aurevoir to 35 later.  Just wanted to share my fancy news!

VEGAS BABY!!!!!

Be prepared and in the spotlight.

The other day I ran to the store to get some essentials and found the town had turned into complete chaos.  People were going crazy and everyone was dying of this sickness.  Everywhere I turned I was trying to not touch people or things.

Okay... wait... this is that Contagion movie. But I did go see it.

 Everything I've read about it is people freaking out about touching things and washing hands. And although I do want to use hand sanitizer a few hundred times a day, it's not the biggest lesson I walked away with.  I've always had a pretty decent belief in food storage and emergency preparedness, a lesson I've grown up with through my church. I've never been extremely good at it... it's hard to have a decent stock pile when you live in apartments.  But since we bought our house we've been trying to be better about it. But after this movie I just wanted to be 100% prepared and now. Also I think we better buy a gun in case people try to kill us for our food storage!  It's not a nice thing to do people.

But all in all it was a good zombie movie minus the zombies of course. Which is exactly what I thought it would be when I saw the trailer for this movie.  Which of course made me laugh because I'm no the only one who thought so. There's this blog, I don't remember how I found it but I love it.  It makes me laugh so today I'll share it with you!  It's Sean Thomas Fisher's Blogwash from what I can gather he writes books that would keep me awake for nights on end in a totally creepy way.  But his blog is hilarious and I can't get enough so go check it out :)

What blogs do you love?

10 years later

10 years ago we were all glued to our TV's watching this:

I was in school when the second plane hit. Or so I remember.  We were in our first class watching it on a TV my teacher had wheeled in. I'm sure I don't have much else to say than everyone else today.  But I wanted to take a minute to remember. Lives changed that day, and a lot of families were torn apart by a cruel deed.

So never forget!

And thank you to all the troops who have fought and continue to fight for our freedom!

Mind over matter... or something like that

I really try to keep most my work life off this blog.  I think. I'm not sure I do a great job of it. I've also tried to be more positive here.  But here's the thing.  Today I need to vent. Today I need to get somethings out.

My job has been great to me. I get paid really good. I mostly like doing what I do. But lately.... I don't know.  I hate never seeing the hubs because I work weekends and he doesn't.  I hate working holidays. and there are A LOT of unfair things happening. A LOT! Which I'm for sure not getting into on this blog because its a highly unprofessional way to deal with it all. So moving on...

I read recently that having friends where you work is crucial to happiness in the work place.  And not to offend anyone I work with who may read it, but I don't really have friends at work.  I have one person I get along with very well and for the most part consider a friend... that's one... one person in the midst of... getting off subject. Going back. I like my Boss. I think he's a great guy. So lets make a people I like at work list.  there are 2 people on it.  And one of them is my boss. You can't always like your boss. sometimes they have to be the boss and enforce that you work every weekend and holiday which you hate. It comes from his boss.  So you can't always like your boss. UGH I'm rambling I know but this is how my thoughts are in my head right now.

When was the last time I was truly 100% happy at work?  When I was just a peon at AMC.  When I was surrounded by friends and people I loved being around. It's the whole reason I got sucked into the theater business. Its been different at the company I now work for. I can't say I never had friends. I used to have some, I guess. But they've either quit or we've had things come between us whether it be work politics or family issues or they've gone to other locations or jobs where I just don't see them as much.. Whatever... I am where I am... and where I am is Stuck.

I make too much money to qualify for grants for school.  I don't make enough money to pay for school on my own.  I have too many fanical responsibilities to take much of a paycut.  I make too much money to quit and find soemthing I'd like better. I don't make enough money to work every weekend and holiday and play happy about it. it's a never ending cycle. I screwed up and wasted my high school days when I could've been getting schooling for free that I would die to get now. If I could do the Job I'm in now monday- friday 9-5 I'd be a lot happier. I think the hours are my biggest issue. but I'm just not sure any more.

They say you can decide how to feel about something. maybe thats true but its hard to love something you're learning so fast to hate. I guess I better try beacuse I'm not so sure what else to do. I hope it works.

Here's a little story

First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Aubrey Anne and 311's Chad Sexton hope its a fantastic day!

Second of all I'd like to tell a little story.  It may be true it may be false but its a story non the less. So there's this company.  It doesn't matter much what they do or what they're called.  They open a brand new building and furnish it with hand me downs from their other existing locations. Well 5 years go by and they build another new building. And this building gets all the upgrades all the love and everything new.

Meanwhile back at the other building things are starting to fall apart. Things no longer work. And somethings are just missing because life is rough and some people suck. In particular there's this, let's call it a flashy-do, well this flashy-do is pretty important for a certain aspect of this place of business. In the beginning there were quite a few flashy-do's but as they got older they started to fail as did their power supplies. So someone says hey we've had these for a million years can we just buy a few new ones, that might actually have power supplies that really truly go to them. and that someone gets told... Yeah about that, we're buying 10 flashy-do's for the new building and they're 2,000 dollars a piece, so no.... UM...... someone can buy 165 Flashy-do's for what you are paying for 10!!!! and someone gets stuck with old ones that barely work. Sorry Flashy-do, you're not allowed to retire just yet. So someone says a please please just work and skates by on barely decent.

Anyway what does that someone do after a 12 hour day of non stop nothing works?  Turns up the VAST and paints their nails black.

Also I've learned that when going out with friends you really should try to look somewhat pretty.  I've never been much of girl, I don't know what to do with make up or lace or frills.  But if you go out looking like trash you'll forever be pictured that way!  But it really was the BEST NIGHT EVER! To read more on this night go here Mostly because I'm too tired to tell you myself :)

P.S. Thanks to the people who keep me sane and help me when I'm beyond thinking straight. which may or may not be related to the story that may or may not be true :)

Just a Spoonful of Sugar

Today I went and saw Mary Poppins with my mom and second mom.  It was really good!  The acting and the sets were perfect.  And for a play it had really cool special effects!  I would highly recommend it!

But has anyone ever thought about Mary Poppins. She's the best Nanny ever right? She takes kids into paintings while flirting with her boy toy Burt. They play on the roof and dance in the rain.  She pulls crazy things out of her bag, in fact anything you need or want really.  It doesn't get better than that right? Well how does she do it? She drugs the children! "Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down"

Lets rethink this all. Kids jumping into paintings.  Sounds like a pretty crazy trip. I hope its only a magic high that they're on the roof, because kids actually on the roof while on drugs seems dangerous.  Okay kids not on drugs on the roof is dangerous.  And you can imagine anything coming out of a bag when you're ripped out of your mind.  Once in high school a friend of mine came to class high, and was lets face it a bit out of control.  while the teacher went to the room next door to get another teacher to help her and my friend thought that she had walked through the wall. So I can't see it as much of a stretch for a coat rack to come out of a duffel bag.

I'm not really sure Mary Poppins is who I would leave my kids with if I had any. But the play is AWESOME go see it! And thanks Second mom for taking us!!

Um, Is he still alive?

So working in a theatre I have seen some really strange things. People getting it on in theatres, drunk guys passed out in the bathroom on the floor, 21 empty beer cans in a children's movie, guys spitting their chew on to the floor (I made him mop it up himself.), Hobo's asleep behind the screens, drunk teens, fights over seats, stoned teens, gang fights in the lobby, you name it I've seen it. 

It's a movie theatre not a bar! but sometimes I get confused myself with these people.  My latest venture was some guy who fell asleep in his movie.  The movie ended and he stayed asleep. The usher yelled at him and he stayed asleep.  They turned on the night cleaning lights and he stayed asleep.  They hit a broom against the floor near the guy, he stayed asleep. So of course they call me. "Sir your movie is over its time to go," we say, and he stays a sleep.  "Is he dead??" I ask. But no... he's breathing. We finally had to shake his chair for like a full minute to wake him up. I was scared he might shank us if we touched him!

So a few guidelines for the next time you go to the movie.
-We are not a bar, we do not serve alcohol nor are we okay with you bringing your own.
-Chewing is disgusting in and of it self but I don't want to clean up your cancer spit! So Just don't chew in the theater!
-Just because your the only people in a children's movie does not mean you can break out the alcohol, bag of weed or condoms! Don't do it in any movie but especially not in a kids show! come on! And yes I can smell the Alcohol and weed on you.  I'm not stupid!
-We are not a hotel.  you can't stay the night in the seats behind the screen in the bathroom or anywhere else! and I do NOT want to stay 20 extra minutes after I get off to chase you out! I have to open the next day!
-We are not a boxing ring.  It's not okay to throw fists around. Gangs are stupid anyway but if they want to beat you up to be friends with you, maybe you should think about that before doing it in or in front of a theatre or anywhere.
-I don't like taking tickets out of your mouth or your pockets. it's creepy.
-I hear you talking to me you don't need to touch me to make sure I'm paying attention.  In fact I'll pay better attention if you DON'T touch me.
-Kindness will you get you more than yelling with me.
-And just because you lost your credit card does NOT mean one of my employees stole it!
- If you want to drink in a movie go to Brewvies.

My new project

Okay so remember how I said when I'm stressed I want to paint my house?  Well yesterday I painted this instead.

I have been looking for some art for our bedroom for awhile.  I've wanted something that was in 3 parts so I could hang them like this.

But its been hard to find anything decently priced so I figured.... I'll just do it myself. It turned out to be a very nice day and did wonder for my nerves.  Which I was pretty hyped up that morning because of... SHOCKER.... work.

AND this morning I finished Succubus Revealed.  OMG... SOOO Good!

What do you do when you need to calm down a bit?

Well, Hello school. Yup I do remember you.

You know what I hated most about school while I was in it.  Taking tests. I swear I am the worlds worst test taker. But you know what I did all day today?  I took tests for like 3 hours.  Why? because I had to in order to go back to school.  Which is already causing angst.  I can do this... I can do this... I can do this...

Once the results came back I found Yay! I had past them all, but if I would've just got 10 more points in the math part (you know the part I'm uber bad at) I could have tested out of the math and been done with it. So for 5 more dollars (as opposed to the 200ish to take THE math class) I can take the test again and hope for 10 extra points.  My down fall?  Fractions! Ugh.

But all that testing left me with a horrible terrible no good very bad headache. And the hubs (Okay me too) wanted to go out and get a box spring for our bed.  Ours broke in the move and we've been using the one from the guest bedroom. So out we went, to the furniture store where we paid some God awful amount for a years worth of delivery fees.  But the kicker... if your purchase is under 300 dollars you have to pay a delivery fee anyway.  What the HELL!? then the sales clerk says, oh we don't have any in stock, but we can have one delivered to us from the warehouse tomorrow.  Could you pick it up then? ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME??? They pass my house going from the warehouse to this effing store!!! I got a bit cranky at that and said "Yeah NEVERMIND! this place is a joke!" Needless to say this left me with a worse headache.

There's a new home goods store or something or other just near our house, so as I got off the freeway from the failed box spring outing I thought maybe they sell mattresses although I doubt it.  But we went to check it out anyway.  Of course they don't its like a Pier 1 Imports in case you were wondering.  Hubs did find a pretty sweet Ice cream scoop. 

It has a rubber back!

Of course I went out wearing jeans that are too big for me (Surprising I have some seeing as everything seems to be too small for me these days.) and clothes I had spilled on... and of course I see people I know everywhere I go.  Not complaining I love seeing people I know.. just not when I look like I rolled around in dumpster. But after it was all said and done I was beyond ready for bed and my book.  Oh the one bright side of the day! Succubus Revealed is finally here!!

And something else I've learned... when I have a stressful day I want to paint my house. So tomorrow I'm going to try something new... we shall see how it turns out and maybe I'll share with you!

For now I need sleep, okay lets be real I'm gonna read. I'm not even tired, silly messed up sleep schedule, you kill me! Oh also I didn't mention BIG BROTHER!!! Okay I just did but gull!

Previously On BIIIG Brother

Okay I've talked about it a little.  Everyone knows its an obsession.  I LOOOVE Big Brother.  I was starting to get a little down about this season because all the players are gone and we're left with the useless people really.  But praise the heavens that they're kind of Dumb!

Here's the thing.  I NEVER thought I'd say man I hope Rachel makes it to the final 2. She drives me nuts!  But really since Brendon left the 2nd time she's been amazingly chill.  She hasn't been the player she was last year, which lets hope she can step it up and when POV this week, but I sadly want her in the final 2.  I want Jordan to win again and I want the evil trader Shelly to be sent packing. What a two faced lying beast of a woman! I cannot believe how she continually says she wants to be an example for her daughter then she acts the way she does and says the lies she tells. At this rate Shelly your daughter is gonna end up in prison... I hope she doesn't watch your example in the house! But Jordan and Rachel got the chance of a life time this week... don't eff it up ladies... play play play!



The evil trader Shelly



Rachel and Jordan
For the win ladies!

On the other hand Jordans blow up at Shelly was AMAZING I never thought Jordan could be so mean!  it was awesome!

Anyway  I'll stop boring you with my love of Big Brother.. I promise my next post will have no big brother... okay I can't promise that.  But I'll try really hard!

My how you've changed.

The other day a friend of mine said to me, "You have really calmed down since I met you."  I had to ask him what he meant, because I thought he meant I was less angry than I used to be. But I had just finished one of my many rants to him about how everyone should jump off a bridge.  He laughed at me, because apparently I had said something about people smoking and drinking. (I really don't judge people, it was about drinking and smoking while pregnant if we're being honest, which is something I NEVER would have done.)

But a year and a half ago I was like this on my nights off.

I can't beleive I'm sharing these pictures!

Where would we be without the wild nights

Now my nights off are spent more like this:



My oldest guilty pleasure

My newest obsession



All because two people fell in love

Or practicing for when the zombies attack and I become one.



Okay maybe I haven't changed too much.





But seriously... do I regret the changes I've made in my life?  NO.  Are they easy choices I make now?  I'd be lying if I said they were. In fact most the time life is way less interesting.  I have my reasons for thinking its the right thing to do though, not only for me but for the people I love most. I'm still friends with all of my old friends. I don't try to change thier life styles. but I guess I have changed. Growing up is hard.  But I'm still happy, I love my husband, and life will always change.  I hope it only gets better for everyone!

What has changed the most about you?